My name is Cija (pronounced kee-yah). My name comes from a book series called Atlan written by Jane Gaskell. I’ve tried to live up to my namesake as much as possible. Particularly the parts about how she believes woman rule the world, shes a goddess and empress” . I’m an Aries in every sense of the word and have spent a good portion of my life ramming into things….it’s taken me a few years (ok my whole life) to stop and consider before taking action. It isn’t my comfort zone to sit back and relax and that is something I am still trying to master.
This blog started out as a way to talk about how it feels to be me in my body at my weight. I have spent most of my life being aware of my weight and where that puts me in the attractive and acceptable hierarchy. Thankfully I developed other pieces of me so I could successfully ignore the gaping wound regarding my weight, well, until now. It’s sort of my last big battle. It’s so personal and for me I find I haven’t even been able to begin to deal with it until now.
But as I wrote I found that I didn’t want to just focus on weight, I get tired of talking about it and I find it doesn’t really move me forward. So I have opened up my topics to be whatever strikes my fancy. My goal is to talk about things that all of us may face and to let people know they aren’t alone and the mountain may not be as high or insurmountable as they think.
I am also working on a book: Modern Love: The Grownup’s Guide to Relationships & Online Dating. It is geared towards people that grew up in the 80′s, before the internet and how to tackle their relationship baggage and use internet dating as a tool for good.
This blog is dedicated to my Mom. She and I have been in this weight thing together and I want her to know that none of her challenges with this have been in vain. I get it and I want to find a way out of it.
My hope is that this blog helps someone, at least one other someone not feel alone and also feel empowered to take whatever steps they are comfortable with. If it doesn’t do that and just helps me sort this I, I’ll take that too.