So I am in month three of voluntary unemployment and I have learned some things:
- Whatever amount of time I thought it will take to decompress I should have multiplied by two (at least). I really thought that after 1 month I would be raring to go on writing and everything else I planned to tackle. But 20 years of gradual but constant stress takes longer to unwind from than I thought it would. The first two weeks all I could do was watch movies and maybe shower. By the end of the first month I was ready to go outside again and deal with humans and Dave and I took a week-long road trip. But, it still took me a little longer to start NEVER under-estimate your need for decompression.
- Be flexible: Whatever master plan you had before you quit may not pan out the way you hoped. My plan was to write like crazy and in between that Jazzercise like Jane Fonda. Well with my heart stuff (see previous post) coming into play and answers from my doctor taking many more visits than I expected, my time has not played out the way I planned. Time just gets sucked up somehow or another and zip another day is gone. Appointments, errands, dawdling (yes I now have time the dawdle!)
- The bad habits and behaviors I had when working 40 hours didn’t magically go away when I quit my job. I was a stress case when I worked. Even though I (eventually) wasn’t worrying about my old job, I discovered that the stress went somewhere else like stressing about my heart.(Oh irony) Beware the traveling bad
habits.
Yes I am only in month 3 of this time off and I am already analyzing this (see item #3 above) My initial goal is to do not need a “real” job until at least the end of the year and so far so good. What I am starting to understand is that I need to be flexible and stop worrying so much if the my world is sticking to the plan. I need to trust myself more and enjoy the ride.
I have of course also discovered some awesome things about time off. For the first time in I don’t know how long, I am “present” most of the time. I actually find myself paused in a moment truly enjoying it. I am writing and enjoying it, making some headway on the dating book I am working on (that process is a whole other post). I still have a way to go on this adventure but the world is swirling around me a bit slower these days and for that I am thankful.